Saddest time of my life

A couple of days ago, I had the saddest time of my life. I thought I have finally found a job that I enjoyed, but, everything turned out different from what I had imagined.

Well...I was interrogated for an hour +, it felt like the longest and hardest time of my life. I did not remember what exactly happened during the talk, I think I am still suffering from some sort of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, and I think I lost some of the memory during then. But, I will write some entries for that when I recollect my memory.

I was really upset by the whole thing. I guess.. I don't know. I am confused. What shall I do next?